a "WONDERFULL" morning

well, everything happened last night before i slept. i hear MY FM when i was on my bed. coz i really cannot sleep. turning here and there. then there is a song make me think of her. YA!!! is her!! so just take my phone and sms her. didt respect her to reply.


this morning she reply me. she said she got a new target. and i edi knew who is he that time. just dont know that she can just so protect the guy. like i gonna kill the guy. she can just reply me that. NO! i'm not gonna let u hurt him. NO! well, she got did that ONCE to me before?? i dont know


what is in my mind now is, what did the guy do to her until she can so protect of him??? so care of him??? how important am i when we together?? how much do u love me?? well, i know this all i not gonna have the answer from her... even i hoping for it...


ya... i do ignore u when the time i very sad... very mad of my result that time on u... but... what about u?? have u ignore me before?? and about the teeth operation... do u tell me u done the operation?? u did not tell me!!!! i tot u still waiting yr turn for the operation... so i was talking about my friends.. so we can talk and u can forget about the pain u gonna have...


ya... i admit that before the break... in col i got some feel towards a girl... she can just make me forgot about u... but she ask me try my best to be good with you... so i did that... but i failed also... u dont feel like talking to me... hard to communicate with u.... and end up... we break...


well... the girl... i think u know who u are... anyway... thank you!! but the girl DEFINATELY is not wui ling... coz there is some misunderstanding... say that i like wui ling... i mean i do like her as a friend... not those like in relationship la... but in heart, i treat her as my cousin... coz she just like my cousin... sorry wui ling if u dont like...


maybe i too immature... as what i learn today... ya... we had cry before... and cry for each other more than fingers... i tot we can stay very very long... no!!


me spending over 2000 bucks on her... is my record... my record of spending money in a year... almost half of the money is i get the returns from my dangerous work... i'm a guy who dont know how to understand a girl or gf feeling through text... but not when facing each other... even is a big huge amount of money... until now... i still feel is worth... only one reason... because she really happy and suprise on that time!