bad day...

before i start my blog today...talk a bit about yesterday night....yesterday i make a deal with her....i mean my dear....is like this....if she never SMS me before 630a.m.....means i will give her a morning call....and she have to kiss me everytime i call her.....hehehe..sounds good...but i know....she sure scared to kiss me....kemungkinan is because this is her first time......i make this deal because want her wake up and not be late to school.....after that i think....am i going to received a SMS....from her....everymorning....that is REALLY REALLY VERY SPECIAL from her??so just look and see.....

this morning i wake up about 6....then do everything slowly....seen i got many time....then i received a call.....is from mun chun....he say that he just wake up....ask me go school by myself....then i say ok.....later i go bath.....finish bath....finally i received a SMS from my dear....i was guessing that time....when i press 'show' ......is dear....but u know what.....she only write 'morning.....' ....i like....har?!haiz....suan la.....what i expecting is not come true.....

reach school....then i play basketball......dont know why....today shoot ball damm shit.....always kena the 'kuang' then came out......not over means no enough.....then i was thinking....i sure tak kecewa....so no mood shoot in......then suddenly i simply shoot only....i get my first three points ball.....then play games again.....4 on 4......haiz.....people give me so many ball....everytime i shoot....sure kena 'kuang' and takkan masuk.....then i give up.....i dont want play shooot but pass ball......and i get 4 out of 6 of my team assits....at the end is 5:5....then we say play last time....who in who win......then all gila gila....shoot three points even got chance to shoot for win.....then when alan shoot....he get an air ball and i get it.....then i rebounds it......YES!!!is my second ball to get in......and also my secong ball...i help my team to win..hahah.....

today perhimpunan damm long.....then finish first period....physics time....teacher give us the paper....i just get 54/75.....shit result....finish physics then PA.....PA teach new chapter....then rehat....after rehat....BI....teacher want us finish two short essay about The Pearl's setting and character.....within 15mins must pass up....then i was like.....teacher,u siao a!!!!?......then keep on doing....but finish 15mins...no one can finish....then teacher say just pass up before the school end.....haiz.....crazy.....moral teacher pula.....ask us to exersice.....then Math....Math teacher teach us new chapter also....finish school....mun chun got meeting....so i chatting with pei jun and sou yee.....then suddenly saw clarment....then ask clarment how is it?because today clarmant kena aim from other indian geng.....then he just give me a conclusion.....tomorrow fight after school.....then i say ok la....and ask him be carefull......

then i cycle alone back from school to home.....dont know what to talk.....my mind just tell me....hargai pru.....dont ever and ever let her go out......then i was asking myself.....how much she love me now???is more than before or less than before??what answer can she give me??is she sure for that answer??......then i cycle....i reach home....eat......online......blog here.....now i thinking somemore....and is hope she can hear from me....because all this i want her to know.....
do u know what i want??i want what u want from me.....for example,i wish to call u dear.....sure i hope u call me honey too....of course in public too but not too loud....hehe....wish to see u everyday....as what u want too....but i know this is imposible for now.....i want more care from u....i want u know more about my friends....and i know.....u cant do it.....but please try....and i still waiting from u to say something to me.....like that day in midvalley.....i had tell u.....dont know what u feel.....but for sure i want to know it....and please....ask me everything that u wish to know.....and of course answer all my questions la....if i ask u.....

lolz.....those all this is from my heart.....hope u can feel it.....write here means to let u know......damm tired....tomorrow still got PJ for UDTA......then this saturday i join two choir...one for basketball club...one for chinese society........and hope Pn.Ngooi can keep her promises o..... :)

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dont know why....after i blog the blog(above one) ididt smile at all.....and in my mind...just think of my dear.....and do everything slow.....am i wrong??dear,please help me answer this question....today tuition....i like study nothing.....about 940.....she SMS me that she want to sleep now....ask me dont ask her why....and ask me study....then say good night.....that time i know....and i really know.....she read the blog.....my heart keep on saying sorry pru.....until now....sorry for hurt u.....and i read your blog......and now.....i cry.....i dont know for what.....but i know....pru feel dissapointed to me....and i know....i going to lost her......NO WAY!!!!please.....maybe i think so many stupid dumb thing because of my mood......i always like that when i was bad in mood.....and i though i can chat with u when i home.....but what u wrote in your blog is u have meeting....that time......argh..........!!!!!!!!!!!and i think i told u before that....when i unhappy....i sure eat a lot....now i was eating bread...

sad sad sad,
who am i thinking of?
for this question,
i know the answer well,
i know the answer is sure,
that is pru,my dear.

dear.....
sorry for making u freaking sad,
sorry for making u freaking bad,
sorry for making u doing nothing,
sorry for making u thinking and thinking and thinking,
sorry for making u thinking what i wants and what i really wants,
sorry for making u thinking u are the bad person after all,
and i know u have your principle...
i know i am your first...
just want to tell u that,the person i love...i really love is pru....means pru is pru.....just like what u say...u are u.......
care for me??well....i think u know what to do.....like how i care for u......
dont ask u why u sleep so early??now.....i know....because u told before......
before i end this blog.....i still in crying and eating condition.....heart and mind thinking of u....and wish to have your forgiveness....wish to know what u think now after u finish reading this....and wish u continue and more love me.....
hope i can dreams u today.....and talk there....i didt heard from u a day.....which is ours record.....
dear,good night!

i LOVE U