7 Sept 2007....[version 2??]

well....this blog??....just whatever is it.....i blog this only for her....my dear....prudence....she is a girl born on 18 Feb 1991....a girl that love to help people...care for other feelings than herself....a cute and pretty girl....one day we meet each other at taman negara camp....well....both of us also a scout....on 777....which is year 2007 july 7........this is the day we couple.....and i m her first......sure la happy....if i not mistaken.....after a week....she ask me go summit watch movie....which is transformer....actually is 3 person watching this....but ticket problem....so only both of us.....4 august we go out again.....this time midvalley.....but is with her brother....her brother friend....joey tang...and choo whye....we go watch the invisible....then on 18 august 2007...her school got basketball tournament....and i and mun chun asked be a referee....so we meet again...and i drive car go fetch her....the next day....19 august 2007.....we meet again...this time so many people going...we go IOI mall.....watch rush hour 3.......that time i was late....she was angry....and she know why.....

what i trying to say here is....i know that...i really fall in love to her....because my ex gf.....i not even can cry out for them.....yesterday night....she went for sleep already......i was thinking....what she thinking actually....and u know what....the feeling is so hard to describle.....my tears is wanna come out....but cant come out......i think u wanna know what is happening??.....last two days.....i asked her...do u regret be my gf??....she said no regret for having me....but regret for start so early....of course.....i asked her back...why u say so??.....she said....she never wanted to start so early.....she dowan affect her studies...she want her simple life.....she want go around 'kao' boy......then i just simply say say...go la.....she pula reply me.....ask me dont regret for what i say just now......of course i dowan she do so....then later on she say she wont leave me.....

yesterday.....she send a message to me....'give me some freedom till i reach form five first....i wanna be like single la.....'for u..what u thinking??.....for me...i sure link what she said last two days and yesterday.....she say she want her simple life.....and she wanna be like single.....what does all this mean??.....oh ya...one more....she also say that she wont leave me if i give her freedom.....i was thinking.......i never give her freedom??.....almost every time i got ask her....if u got thing to do...u do.....no need care about me.....of course....i asked her what kind of freedom she want??...she just answer me....she dont know...just dont have the freedom that she got last time.....

last night....i cant sleep well....when i close my eyes....i sure think about what she said to me.....not i dowan sleep....just....haiz....close a while only....my tears all want come out....then i lap....close eyes again....happen again....then i decide look at the fan pusing....then i fall asleep....today....the whole day.....i just act that i am happy....act i smile......and only may yen realise i got problem...so i told her everything....and my tears....come out again.....she ask me to cry out...i say....not i dowan to cry out.....but i really cant cry out.....

anyway....prue....hope u can consider below this as a letter from me to u....

Dear prue,

i know u tuition now....this letter just want to let u know what am i thinking....

well....just now the SMS u say talk after u finish tuition....so....i come and blog this here....seen i really dont know what to do now.....

what i gona say here is all from my heart.....

prue,last night is the second time my tears came out because of u.....not saying that u are bad....but just want to let u know that.....i really really really dowan left u....the important is i really fall in love to u....and hope u remember.....the day u say YES to me.....i told u that...if got anything u feel uncomfortable between us....please kindly tell me.....the only reason is.....i very appreciate this bond....dont u??.....as i told u before....u really is part of my life....

well....about u saying that u want 'kao' boys....of course u can....and tell u....i no 'kao' girl now after u are my gf....because i repect u.....u told me before.....u are u....ya.....i agree what u say.....so...i didt stop u for doing anything.....u can do anything u want as long as in yr heart.....i am still yr bf.....from morning until now....i just drink water and a bowl of ABC only until now....i cant answer u why.....because i also dont know why....but just can tell u that...i not feel hungry....

there are something u might be dont like me to do for u....u can just say and let me know....and i will stop it.....but sometimes i just cant do it...for example...when u are sick....now....i got a bad feeling....

conclusion is....I LOVE U.....dont u love me??.....i dowan u left me.....because i already biasa the life with u....please give me a chance.....and for u too....today....can consider the whole day my tears always on my eyes....not to saying anything but to let u know...i really really really appreciate this bond....

thanks for wasting your golden time for this....hope that u will happy to your decision...

Hu Nee